dad,so much time has passed since i last saw you, but at times it feels like time has stood still. so much has changed since that day we put up the christmas tree and laughed about all the little bald angels julie and i made for it as kids and how much our christmas' were like that chevy chase movie. words cannot express how much i wish i could just sit and talk with you again...
thank you for the roses dad. you know that rose bush you planted in the front flower beds. it has grown enormous and every year on my birthday they bloom. i tell everyone that dad brought me roses for my birthday. julie, mom, and i cut some and brought them to your grave today. as i stood there i thought of you. .. of how my hands are exactly like yours ..how you used to wave to me from across the room. your good days...your sick days...the days before the sick ones. our trips to the ocean...the time you pulled me and the neighbor girl out of the snow between our yards. i get mad when i think of the fact that i will not have you walk me down the aisle, to hold my first born child, to watch me fully become an adult...but then i think ...i have had more of a dad for 21 years then many people i know will have in a lifetime. its what can be so painful sometimes but also a sense of joy. i know sometimes when i walk around ...or at least for once am aware of it, that you see me. if you see me tonight..know that i love you and am wishing you a happy fathers day.
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