awakened and shaken

two nights ago i was fast asleep after a late night with an early morning awaiting me. about 430 i felt it....my bed shaking. it was as if someone was sitting next to me shaking me awake. i woke up in groggy logic tried to figure out what was happening. i remember thinking in my mind...it must be an earthquake...not ever really experiencing one i dont know why this was my conclusion. in the morning i wrote this off to a wierd dream. i checked the local news to see if there was any word of an earthquake in ohio....i thought how strange...it seemed so real to me. tonight i discovered that there was an earthquake in illinois that could be felt here and that i was indeed feeling tremors. 

the good the bad and the ugly

this month has been the hardest i have seen in a very long time. i am flat broke, moving home, have been arrested, had my car repossesed and my gas shut off. i have hit hard times. through this i understand quite a bit of what the lord is doin in my life to allow me a way out. it is a wake up and a shove from the comfortable. it is a dependence and desperation. it is pain and humility. it is the hands of God....i am blessed to experience this. i am overjoyed to know this isnt the end. i have seen the good the bad and the ugly and trust the Lord through  it.

mlk and other thoughts

growing up martin luther king jr. meant really only one thing to me, an extra day off school. i grew up in a white american suburb that was upper middle class at its most modest stretch. i had one black friend in middle school and that was pretty much my extent of racial diversity. as i have grown older i have learned more of this man, of civil rights, of faith and fight so intertwined that speech and sermon became synonymous .  he put to feet what we only talk of. this man was an agent of more change in 39 years than others have in a lifetime.